Dear Auntie Depression,

I'm rather happy today. My Marriage is 20 years old this week. I celebrated it with a big party on sunday and friends and family showed up.  More than I expected.

Michael and I worked as a team to put the party together. We worked as a team to make photo books of our lives together this first score of years. We work together nicely and have been cuddling more lately.

I am so blessed with good things.

I need this blog today to remember for me tomorrow, that I was happy. Things were busy full and stressful and I am happy.

Depression forgets what this feels like.

I am cozy tired. I can feel my face has a small smile. I feel very loved and wanted. And worthy. And still young.

I got to see my littlest grandson walk with Dalys holding his hands up. He is such a little doll baby.

I got to see Adrian Joanna and Kate, Joe, Bill, Bill, Michelle, Carl and Michele.  As well as our local friends and all of our family.

and today, the ruins of the party around us, Michael and I just relaxed for the day. It was healing.

I feel good.  I will feel good again no matter what happens tomorrow.

please reread this when the next grey day comes.

I will feel good again. I promise.