You are feeling good. Things are looking more positive. Maybe you are even sleepiong better, more relaxed. Depression is losing the fight and starting to recede again. And then?
Maybe it was something you read, a movie you saw, a friend or family member not sure if they should tell you this but...
Suddenly your back to feeling fragile, hopeless, tired and depressed.
Or if you suffer from ptsd like I do (thanks Dad) your trip wire sent you a surge of fear-panic.
What now?
Likely the Train of Suck has just refueled and is telling you what a loser you are, and how your never going to be normal an no one wants to be around you.
What that train is not going to tell you is to just take a moment and breathe.
You are here because you have already acknowledged and accepted the fact that you have Depression. So how can you possibly suck if your suddenly depressed again. My train likes to tell me that Im not good at anything, but Heck I'm great at being depressed.
What kind of negativity is your train hitting you with? Look over your list of positive wood tools. Take the wheels of that train.
You are going to have setbacks. you are going to be triggered and you are going to need to retreat and replenish, rest, recover.
The thing is you are also going to get back up again. Don't let this current feeling erase the fact that before you got triggered you were feeling good. You are capable of feeling better, and will feel better again.
Practice trust. Find someone who knows you struggle with depression. Let them know what your going through right now. You don't have to feel alone in your depression. There are people who care.
I care.
Smell of the day: warm bread
Sound of the day: Hand held hair dryer
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